17

today is my birthday; so i figured that gives me a pretty legit reason to post another blog. i'll be 17 years old at 1:54pm. i don't feel any different, just blah. maybe it's because i'm trying to get through each day with a crushed heart and questioning uncertain motives... ehh, whatever. i have to get over it, it wasn't meant to happen; i just wish this all didn't have to happen right now, around this very day.
so i'll try to make the best of today, even if nothing special is going on. i've decided that i'm gonna focus on my dieting and exercise, getting a job, loving the Lord, friends and family, and soon-school. no boys. i'm done for a while, i need to heal before i set myself up for another disappointment.