rest in peace

I found out thursday night that a guy i went to school with took his own life. now i know why he wasn't at school that day.
but it all started with a phone call from his best friend's grandparents. then my dad told me, but he couldn't exactly remember his name. so he said the complete wrong name, so i figured it was someone i didn't know.
but i go to school the next day (yesterday) and find out it was who i was thinking of. Jake H. he was in my CAD class and to be honest, never really knew the kid. but it still hurt me. yeah, i didn't hang out with him or anything, but i was around him everyday in that class. and he was a happy person and completely hilarious. very attractive too. that's why i don't get it. why? yesterday was a very sad day. there were about 50 people in the library who couldn't be in class because it hurt so much. he was truely loved and had lots of friends. it was bad. people who knew him really closely were crying. this made me extremely emotional; i just wanted to go and give a big hug to every single one of those who were hurting. every class i was in i was totally out of it; i couldn't concentrate. it was just a horrible friday. i went home and cried my little heart out that night. i think it officially hit me. so i prayed for his family and friends; hoping that God could give them all the strength to get through this awful time. it's still just so crazy that he's actually gone; that i'll never see him again until that time comes. this reminded me of Claire as i looked down at the pink bracelet on my wrist. she too died at such a young age and she was someone closer to my heart. it's just so unfair.
all i have to say is that Jake and Claire will be missed and i hope they rest in peace.


lovealways;morgan