My New Years Eve

How was my new years eve you ask? one word. pathetic.
my parents left me and my "asleep" sister around 8:00. so i was pretty much "alone".
but yeah, i was online most of the night, waiting for the new years show to come on. i watched only parts of it, the special parts. haha
i wanted this night to be a family night, seeing that i had no friends to come over. but my parents were going to some lameee party that they said they weren't even going to go to in the first place. and of course they ended up going. i mean, i wouldn't mind if it was a nice party, but most of their friends, ahemm, i mean most of my dad's friends are such loserss. that sounds really rude, but it's true and i knew the party was gonna suck them into a black hole, them getting drunk and whatnot. i didn't want my parents driving home under the influence. ughh, and they said they were only gonna be "out" for a little while. well, they ended up coming home about 20 minutes before midnight and they were totally "out-of-it". i'm surprised they actually came home before midnight.
ehh, well. a few minutes before midnight me and my sister [who'd finally woken up about 5 minutes earlier] got ready with our sparkling cider which i left in the freezeerrr!! :(( so i got it out and didn't get anything out of it because it was frozen. ha
so my sister was upset that we couldn't "toast". but it did eventually defrost a little bit and it practically exploded. haha ;) i got a little bit out of it and gave some to my sister. we "toasted" a few minutes after, but sooner than later right? at midnight my parents shared a kiss while i was wishing i had mine with some amazing guy i saw on the television screen♥ so far away, yet so close to my heart.

i saw you last night, so happy and full of life with the people you love. i'm so so so prouuud of you and ur accomplishments this year. it still amazes me how far you've come. although you don't know, you've helped me through a lot this year. you've helped me "find" myself and stay true. i now know WHO i am and i'm not ashamed. thank you love. thank you<3