i'm going insane with curiousity. and i'm anxious, but i don't know why... well i do know why, but i know that i shouldn't be. my stomach is doing backflips every 5 seconds and my mind can't stop thinking things over. i'm trying to decode those actions and emotions, probably overthinking everything. i need to stop doing this to myself. i'm hurting myself because this is too good to be true.